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Tuesday, March 1st, 2005
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9:57 pm
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| Wednesday, February 16th, 2005
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5:58 pm - seen on my friends list
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Go to images.google.com. Type in your answers to the following questions and post the first postable image result for each (although this may depend on your definition of what is "postable.")
Place you grew up, place you live now, your name, your grandmother's name, favourite food, favourite drink, favourite song, favourite smell, favourite shoes.
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| Tuesday, February 15th, 2005
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11:31 am - ...
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die taube weisse katze ist verrückt. gestern hat sie sich im vollgekackten katzenklo gewälzt und danach eine lange weile stinkend und beleidigt auf der spüle gesessen. sie hat zwar auch ohrenschmerzen glaube ich und vielleicht war sie auch bekifft, aber trozdem komisch
the white cat is crazy. she rolled passionately in the dirty litter pan. ...am i taking responsibility for yet another crazy person...
and just because
( die schönen Rosen )
current mood:  ...
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| Monday, February 14th, 2005
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3:44 pm
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| Saturday, January 1st, 2005
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5:44 pm
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happy newyear everyone! :)
minh and me have cleaned our flat yesterday, whoa! looks a lot better now :p surprise surprise
people were coming here in the afternoon, i had a ton of berliner pfannkuchen and prosecco, warm up party for the party at karstens place lateron. we bothered steve, who is sick, by calling him every half an hour trying to make him come too XP and he came, later to karsten :). it was nice at karstens place, those crazy bulgarian girls went crazy dancing and singing and oddly it was totally different people this time who went out of theirselves more than others, like jörg for instance *g*.
i forgot to take pictures though! gah >:/ well i took some from earlier that night ;)
i was tired muuuch too early, also minh was pretty jaleous i think so thinking about relation stuff kept me busy and quiet most of the time. we went home rather early, i didnt even dance :/
( yesterday early evening )
current mood:  calm
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| Friday, December 31st, 2004
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3:56 pm - hehe
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| Tuesday, December 28th, 2004
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11:50 pm
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| Monday, December 27th, 2004
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9:26 am
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| Sunday, December 26th, 2004
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3:14 pm - merry christmas!
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sooo i havnt updated for a while, so much is going on all the time :). christmas wasnt quite at all, i got paniky a few days before christmas because i hadnt cared AT ALL for presents, christmas postcards or the like, but then i decided to just let it be and give my best by just being me and be in good mood. therefore everything turned out to be rather pleasant. on wendsday was tilmans birthday whihc was nice, karsten simone and me left a bit earlier to go to another christmas party of the programming company where karsten sometimes works too, i've never seen so many girls with glasses o.o, it was weird, they seemed so nerdy and stuck up at first but later everyone got to dance (well simone and me were the ones nobody knew and we werent afraid to start dancing ;p)
on thursday evening when i came home Esti called and i had a great eveing with her at her place, saturday morning we didnt even go to the shops anymore, whihc didnt matter muhc because we were eating at other places everyday since then so far. eating too much, especially chocolate! so on christmas eve we went to my dad who had his girlfriend from poland there and her whole family. it was very international, we had polish, german, finnish and vietnamese food and lots of wine. yesterday we went to lolli (Roland)who's about to massacre the turkey in that photo below. yay at least i got around to take some good fotos :p. i have a few more to post, will do later then.
tonight i was just at my moms to see also gerd and sven, now i am quickly writing this to hurry quickly to karsten next because Sabrina is in berlin, and also Susanne from france so yay, more party *phew*
my tolerance to alcohol and weed steadily grows though >.>, so much party all the time. minh destroyed my bong yesterday grrrr, just a few days before rene finally gave it to me as a present :p. he build me a new one from a bottle but i dont want that crap, i'll get a new one soon :>
so now some photos
Lolli(roland) and karsten and hendrik (linda's BF) in the background
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| Sunday, November 28th, 2004
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3:57 pm
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how did it know? o_O
or alternatively
anyway, i am a bit sick and i just relax, i dont go out this weekend although i planned to before. there would have been a finnish party and tilmans brother would have had a gig.but i just sleep and do things for myself. and try to answer some mails and stuff. yep.
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| Thursday, November 25th, 2004
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3:04 am
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now for some recent thoughts i had. about neopets. and about one of my favourite topics money vs humanity.
i got into a new neopetsgame lately, one of the nonflash games where you click through the site and there's some actually seriously cool program running behind. it's plushie tycoon. you have an amount of fictional NP to start with and you manufacture plushies. if you have enough np on your tycoon account at the end of the month you recieve an amount of real NP (Neopoints, i know this is also fictional money but hey, it serves an educational and entertaining purpose, and it's actually for free. well it costs your time errh...). now as cool as the programming job on it is, the only way to actually win is to fire all your workers once your factory can deliver some plushies. now that is like in reallife isnt it? i know some people refuse to play it by that unspoken rule but they never win anything from that game as long as they try to go the humane way. it's sad, but it seems like part of the educational value of neopets games :/... maybe.
like about the same time when steve and me figured out we would always come back to the topic of money vs humanity (or i do? o.O), they released the news where you can chose sides in the hannah plot "It's time to choose. Will you help Hannah and Armin save the race of Bori or would you rather help Galem and the rest of the thieves guild in their quest for riches?" an easy choice of course, joining hannah and her meanwhile(after lil over 24 hours) 77000 neopetsplayers supporters against the 32000 thieves supporters (wow, a lot of neopets players, huh?). at the other hand, first it seemed that most of the serious battledomers would join thieves, some of them votet instantly because evil is so cool, a lot of a lil more clever players votet evil then because it seemed like all the battledomers joined thieves therefore thieves would surely win since it would take only a small percentile of bd'ers to defeat a gigantic horde of non bd'ers. but enough honourable and good hearted top-class warriors err battledomers have voted for hannah.
uhm... not sure where i originally wanted to go with this, perhaps just an observation :x....
of course i (and luze) still have to question ourselves weather it is allright to play war-games in ANY form...
actually i am thinking more and more that karsten should not just laugh about me playing neopets but have a serious look at it. it actually combines a few qualities some people of us could bring on when doing a project together. yeah, i was also thiking of simone, remembering how she wanted be the boss of the animation project for nfp with a mere 2 weeks of experience as a linetester(! wow), and some knowledge from her halfway finished education to become a elementary school teacher. no, i'm not being mean, i am thinking this could be something karsten as a programmer and simone could seriously do together.and theres a lot of people around us anyway who could care for the graphics ... not copying neopets but in principle, some interactive multimedia thing that combines a bit more than only film making, we have thought a lot about that in the past, and now i get only laughed at for actually testing some succesfully established forms of it for inspiration and learning :/. oh well.
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12:37 am
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when i squeeze my throat i make funny coughing noises (cute noises like esti said on the phone o.O). so i think i'm just getting a slight cold. also i talked to susanne about lumps and stuff and she said it is just normal, and i remember my mom had strange but harmless lumps also every now and then. maybe women tend to get lumps when they get older.also esti told me of a friend who had a strange lump on their arm and when she went to the doctor he said it's just a gland just liek everyone has them, just because she was so thin she could feel it +_+. i'm not that thin though, and i will go to the doctor, for once, even if it's really just because i'm having a little cold and a swollen gland.
in a moment of "anxiety" i don't know if i'm seeing serious threats more clearly or if i'm just childish, or, if the other way around it is just childish to not take things seriously...eh. both is true i guess... however, after posting when having been in such a mood i feel stupid afterwards :p. i often think "uwww, why did i have to say that in public (if i'm not sure i might just as well better keep it to myself)". yeah, me and luze we are a bit similar there, with the difference that i don't mind so much ~_- *must force luze to update more often too* he also used to write journals to free himself, i don't know why it has actually turned into some kind of anxietey...
*ummm jumps off to drink tea and read more and update more later*
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| Wednesday, November 24th, 2004
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4:54 pm
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| Tuesday, October 5th, 2004
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10:02 am
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| Tuesday, September 14th, 2004
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6:13 pm
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| Monday, August 30th, 2004
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2:12 pm
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so i had this exhebition on saturday, first of all, thanks to everyone who supported me by posting here or elsewise :) thanks a lot , really. i don't think i have been more nervous in my entire life than in the past few weeks, not only because of the exhebition but because of all the other things going on here too... i'm like physically permanently under tension, sometimes it even makes breathing hard and i fear to collapse, so, it really isnt just blah blah, but serious stress that i have. and as awesome it all might sound to people who say of themselves that they have no life, honestly, i envy you. you have time to do your own stuff in peace.
so, on last thursday we had a party at the company too and i used it to get deaddrunk ><. i was almost dead on friday, last day before the exhebition that i could try to mnage things. i was unable todo anything but sleep. i felt like utter shit, unhappy about my miserably managed life, my crappy artwork noone is gonna going to like or even understand, my stupidity to get so drunk ,... etc etc
can i say too much stress can also cause depression. not only for one day even if it sounds like that... but it is hard to be constantly happy if life doesnt feel all that easy.i seriously think sometimes i am too emotional for a real carreer. i take things too seriously and i tend to get cought up in too strong emotions in all kinds of situations. my mind isnt clear enough because of diffuse emotions and i am emotionally touched at peoples reactions, especially when they act in ways i didnt expect, or when it seems to me as if they wouldnt think about at all how someone else might feel because of the way they act. or not act/ react.
...however i didnt see muchof peoples reactions during the exhebition. peopel were busy enough with eating meat and drinking beer while my father read poems about death and exerpts from his book about the end of mankind, and the pianoplayer played sad classic music and my pictures of emaciated men and such were screened at the house-wall.
it was strange, but i survived. i might get an own beamer one day and repeat this kind of exhebitions with more explaining speech to it; and in other locations where people might be more intrested... maybe.
( blah. sorry, i lack of time and right words. this should be friends only i guess )
current mood:  working
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| Wednesday, August 25th, 2004
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10:09 pm
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| Thursday, August 19th, 2004
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10:16 pm
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so this week we met the producer for the project we're going to make by ourselves if the tv station wants it to be produced. unfortunately the script is very bad and obviously karsten has a hard time imagening that it can be still fun doing it :/. the script will still be changed though, so theres hope, lots of.
this whole thing gave me the greatest nervosity ever. this alongside with the incredible timepressure at my actual work and the pressure to prepaire somethign for an exhebition in ten days, my first one, public for random people who are not even intrested in pointy ears or the like >< ... sooo. and i will see them look sceptically and shake their heads lol.
sabrina will also come to berlin again that day :). my lifesaver ^^
i wish we had a bit more time and time to make costumes, one for sister sabrina one for sister sara. and a puppetlike thingy in our middle ;D. well...this perhaps if i ever exhebit again. i urgently need to prepair stuff and get them printed on dia ><. so much to do, so little time. and no time for friends apart from the ones who are around me or very near here anyway :/. no fucking time >:/. i wish i could manage all the good opportuninites better even ... trying to soothe me nerves more often with beer and fresh weed now, cause it does help a little.
i'm going to see karsten soon, eventhough it is late already. ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif?v=92.2) valtin will also come. another opportunity to talk and bitch about work and finally! a chance to talk to simone ... i calmed down a bit about that. but iam majorly nervous about getting too emotional when she turns out to be stubborn ><.
sara in bad nerval condition + stubborn stupidity = emotionally heated collision ... *sigh*
i'm not always good in dealing with all these things
and:
*cough* lol. he'd wish ;D
current mood:  weird
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| Friday, August 13th, 2004
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1:53 pm - Neopets
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i'm thinking of giving away two nice Neopets or create a new account and try to put them on there and give this account to someone cause i have too many neopets to care for already.
DJCuteStuff the striped Lenny and __Chaotix__ the golden Uni. If anyone wants them, let me know.
i also want Luze the korbat on my account
current mood: working
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| Wednesday, August 11th, 2004
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8:29 pm - sunday in sweden
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something funny from last sunday in sweden:
we we're on our trip back to germany, driving through sweden the whole day, from one ship to the other, from stockholm to trelleborg. it was very hot and we made lots of breaks. driving along the vättern-lake(which is really big)we left the highway to take the old road along the waterside, looking for a place to go swimming and have a picknic. since we couldnt find a place to swim there we looked on another road for a little lake we saw on the map to go swimming there. along the countryroad we went and when we arrived at that lake, after over an hour of searching for a place to rest and pee, there was a police car at the side of the road with nervous policemen inside, looking for something. over our heads flew a police helicopter. however we finally were at the lake and urgently wanted to take the desired break. the lake was super dirty(unusual for scandinavia o_o) so we couldnt swim but we could have our picknic lunch somwhere on a field. while we sat there eating the police helicopter flew continuously in circles over our heads and we were debating about why. could be lot of things, a ralley (as we had gotten into one the day before in finland ><, Neste-Rally), some escaped tiger from the zoo,a lost child etc. some car stopped where we were and the man inside seemed very nervous. after some minutes he left to stop again in the next curve as if he was waiting for something. mom suggested to pack and leave quickly before we got kidnapped or get into other serious troubles which the rest of us found to be somewhat exaggerated . however we then left.
the next day, back at home, mom read in the internet that there really were two violent criminals escaped from jail who got captured there later o_o
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